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Friday, September 22, 2017

Good morning, Cubao!

All roads lead to the sun, because it purifies.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Caught the 2016 TV movie The Boy on HBO. Passably creepy, but, like all 20th-century horror movies, it has:

--a man who becomes a love interest and steps in for rescues at the right moment
--a doll that comes to life
--a shower scene
--an attic with an old photo album
--flashbacks in period settings.

As usual, the producer, director, and writer didn't know how to properly end the story and showed a series of different endings in a perplexing and ineffective montage.
The flower vendor buzzed by. Bought two strands of white flowers for the shivalingam and libated a cup of clean water on it.
Since I'm done painting and no longer need to take breaks, I lost interest in The Queen Anne's Revenge and decided to give it to one of the boys on the compound for him to continue.

Back from jalan-jalan. Bought some kitchen stuff.
Every time you connect with someone on the astral level, you will be unable to sleep whenever that person is obsessively thinking, dreaming, or fantasizing about you.
The lion caged in the zoo dreams of having freedom but does nothing about it.
Good noon, Cubao!

The clouds are the people's thought balloons.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

_Portrait of Ong Keng Sen_

Portrait of Ong Keng Sen
Oil on canvas
32" x 46.5"
September 6 - 20, 2017
The aggressors are big cowards after all.
He weeps with remorse, but he is ill-advised by his companions.
Tony Perez's Art of War: Deflection is one of the safest forms of defense.
There will be chaos, and it will be blamed on foreign intruders.
Evening drizzle in Cubao.
The werewolf had two, purple yam ice cream cones at a Sitio Catacutan hawker's stand.
They will not leave, because they cannot afford to.
Too much of a good thing is not always bad.
Old ways will no longer make money for them.
The most amazing talent of all is that which is self-developed.
The sun goes to the beach to pick up seashells.
Good noon, Cubao!

A baking-hot day.
Tony Perez's Art of War: Your personal success is always the best form of revenge, because it besieges your enemies every day of their lives.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

I am drowsing in bed whenever Teen Wolf replays on Sony channel. It is a series that is hard for me to follow. None of the characters have depth, and none of the roles are acting vehicles. The program seems to be a mere springboard for fancy camera effects.

I DO wish that Tyler Posey would engage himself with some other project, preferably a non-supernatural one. His face is as unique as Sal Mineo's was in the 50s, and it would be everyone's loss if he suddenly disappeared.
"The successful warrior is the average man with laser-like focus."

--Bruce Lee
Many people will try to get close to you not because they like you but because they do not like you and want to see what makes you a success. All you have to do is quash their enthusiasm and turn their minds round before you send them away.
Am disturbed whenever broadcasters pronounce "ceremony" as "Seh-REH-mo-nee" rather than "SEHR-eh-mo-nee" and "category" as "ka-TEH go-ree" rather than "KAT-eh-go-ree".
Keep a bag of muesli cereal on hand to snack on when you are hungry, rather than binge on junk food.
When something wonderful comes to you the day following the last night of Hungry Ghost Month, it is a gift of thanksgiving from the hungry ghosts whom you fed.
It is all right to eat food that you offered the hungry ghosts the following day. You may also give it to the poor and the hungry. Your gesture will already have been accepted by then, and materials things are free to go the way of all material things.
Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Last Night of Hungry Ghost Month
Animals fear thunder and lightning as they fear the dragon's roar and breath of fire.
Rolling thunder. The Cubao giants are dragging heavy furniture across their sky-floor.
An alternative healer must always be of the same gender as his or her patient.

Otherwise he/she will be perceived as an alternative flirt.
Elementals are unable to move from one place to another when it rains.
The most distasteful moments in Masterchef Australia are always when the judges ask a contestant, "What does staying in this competition mean to you?" and "How much do you want to win this competition?" You just KNOW that this is a cheap, group dynamics ploy to make the contestants get emotional and elicit tears from them if only to make the show more interesting.

I have often caught contestants respond by putting on an act and giving the judges what they want. The camera captures everything, especially dishonesty--and so do viewers with keen powers of observation.

I have also been thrown off my seat whenever a contestant gushes tears and pours out a life story of hardship, pain, and broken dreams, and then the judges eliminate him or her ANYWAY because they claim that "it's all about the flavor". So what, then, was the point of that stupid melodrama?

Finally, there is always a fuss over sentimental spicing with the keywords "family", "memories", and "childhood", which never fail to make me cringe. Cooking is an art, but so are writing, painting, and music, and all those are really and primarily intellectual and cerebral--which is why there is a need for critics. Very intelligent critics.
Whenever someone you made love to in the past gets ill or dies, you need to fast, abstain, and smudge and cleanse yourself in order to reset your astral body.
FIRST do everything that needs to get done--pay bills, do housework, clean, cook, wash dishes, take out trash, and do the laundry. ONLY THEN do you attend to your art.

If you do it the other way around, your life will be a mess and the world will collapse.
What the departed did not become and did not attain in their previous lifetime, they will in the next.
Waxing literary. It IS time to write a novel.

Painting feeds my writing, and writing feeds my painting.
Yesterday evening before dusk, I took a photo of a street lamp glowing through the branches of a tree. That is an image I see whenever I am traveling from town to town--lamps glowing through treetops, over rice fields, above the roofs of houses. It always gives me a cozy feeling. I try to imagine what kind of people live in the vicinity, what they like doing before nightfall, and wonder whether they know that, as soon as the lamps glow, an entire world of enchantment comes alive.
Waiting for my painting to dry, after which I will varnish it.

And then, I think, I'll write a novel. I haven't done so in a while.
It is always the artist who stands for himself in this world, because individualism is not an institution, and will never be one.
When things go terribly wrong around us, it means that we have elders who are not doing their job and consequently do not deserve our respect.
We grieve for the dead not over what they had but over what they always dreamed of but never had.
If it means that I have to go out of my way and go somewhere to meet you, I would rather cancel.
Good morning, Cubao!

When the sun speaks, it sends out flares.

Monday, September 18, 2017

View on my blog Tony Perez Philippines:

Portrait of Ong Keng Sen
Tony Perez
Oil on canvas
32" x 46.5"
September 6 - 17, 2017
Tony Perez's Art of War: Once you leave a group or once a group leaves you, sever all ties with them and announce it publicly. That way, when they manifest any shortcoming or weakness--or even commit any kind of wrongdoing--it is definitely and clearly their fault and not yours.
Your Messenger message:

"Hello, Tony! How have you been ?

"I had an intriguing dream last night. I dreamt that I was walking after my Teacher on a road that seemed going uphill. I enjoyed walking barefoot on the damp ground which was hard, not muddy

"Later , in another dream, i saw myself filling up a big beautiful light yellow leather handbag . I realised it had become heavy and wondered how i could carry it."

My reply:

Hello __________!

Your psyche is showing you your progress indeed. From high heels to sandals to bare feet, the ultimate practice of humility. The road is uphill, meaning no easy practice, but you are following your Teacher, and you are walking on firm ground.

Regarding the second dream, yellow is the color of emotion, specifically joy on one hand and grief on the other. It may be the one thing that could be bogging you down--emotions are rooted in the past: childhood, youth, and previous lifestyles. You wonder how you can carry the leather bag--only you can answer that, most probably by persistence and tenacity.
The lawyers are still consulting their lawyers.
Our biggest transgression against Nature is producing volumes of trash rather than treasures, whichever way we dispose of it.
Never lose your magic. Sometimes all will seem to be inoperative except that. 
The werewolf had a chocolate ice cream cone at one of the Sitio Catacutan hawkers' stands.
Monday, September 18, 2017

3:44 PM

Eleventh glaze on portrait of Ong Keng Sen.
Monday, September 18, 2017

2:46 PM

Tenth glaze on portrait of Ong Keng Sen.
"Monday, Monday/
Can't trust that day/"
Good morning, Cubao!

The sun is a golden stoplight at a giant crossroads.
When history repeats itself, it includes past tragedies.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

I love divination using mahjong tiles. An elaborate ritual with joss sticks precedes it, and, as in the game, three other people aside from the diviner sit round the table. Walls are built in a ritual phase called "Building the City", which can have one, two, three, or four entrances and a tower. Then tiles are placed in the four cardinal directions (quite disorienting because the diviner is always in the East).

The "flowers" play significant roles and must be mastered first, especially "Chung" (a.k.a. Red Dragon), which really means "Center". I never knew till now that they have such wonderful meanings--and to think that we discard them when we are playing the game.

And oh, all four dice are actually used.
Still reading _Gladiators_ and the book of divination using mahjong tiles.

There are tons of stuff to memorize in the latter. Aside from knowing the meaning of each tile, one has to know its meaning when it is located in the north, south, east, and west, when it appears in a grouping of three tiles, and when it is the first, the second, or the third tile.

That and the I-Ching may keep my non-painting and non-writing time occupied through my physical death.
Tony Perez's Art of War: Do not run ahead of someone whose victory entails death.
No one can put down a truly successful man.
A person who never says hello and goodbye comes and goes like the wind.
Resumed painting.

Sunday, September 17, 2017

9:35 PM

Ninth glaze on portrait of Ong Keng Sen.
Three-hour, deep-tissue massage. It felt like encumbering, astral armor was being shed from my body.
What is pain, then, if we are smaller than grains of sand in the entire galaxy?
There are social activists who believe that using their brains and their loud opinions are their biggest contributions to change. Those, however, do NOT constitute action. Those are mere indications that they expect OTHER PEOPLE to act for them. In the meantime, they keep their feet dry and mix truffles in their salad.
The freedom to make enemies is the heaviest shackle of all.
Three systems will always strive to keep the people poor and ignorant, under the guise of reaching out to them and helping them, in order to continue making money for themselves: religion, politics, and the media.
You shun those whose political opinions are different from yours because it is YOU who desires to control others.

Intolerance is absence of true democracy.
We strongly believe in co-existence, yet it does not really exist in Nature and in the animal world.
Whenever you begin pleasing your critics, you immediately stop being yourself.
All revolutions are due to the oppression of the gods, not the desire to become like the gods. The latter, however, is how the gods will always interpret it.
The Wands must continue pointing to the ground.
An institution will always have more to lose than an individual ever can.
It is pointless to wipe out your political enemies because they NEVER disappear. They will simply reemerge in disguise--you will no longer see them but they will still be there. 
A hot, sweltering day in Cubao.
Like every religion, every government believes it has the key to everyone's salvation.
Good morning, Cubao!

The sky is a big, projection screen waiting for a movie to begin.

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Caught the second half of the 2017 TV movie Michael Jackson: Searching for Neverland on Lifetime, as told from the points of view of his two security persons. Wonderful, credible performances. The script and the direction also avoid falling into the traps of mawkishness and melodrama. In the 1970s I used to believe that the worst performances were on TV. Today I believe that some of the best performances are on TV.
Dinner at home with Angelique and J. Aubrey is at a birthday party.
Back from the center, where I spent an afternoon with my younger son, Chito, and my grandchildren Chevy and Vinci. It was Chevy's birthday approximately a month ago and Chito's birthday today. Bought shoes for Chevy and Vinci and two pizzas for them to take home.
Actually, you do NOT live only once.

All talk, all analysis. No action. They read current events like books. Afterwards, they merely shelve everything.
For every person who hates you, there are 20 other people who love you.
All good parents are expansive.
When the mediocre feast and celebrate, stay as far away from them as you can.
Believe it or not, your father always cheers for you.
Good morning, Cubao!

The clouds are trailer homes en route to a camping site.

Friday, September 15, 2017

Whenever I read a Messenger message that begins with, "Sir Tony, I just wanted you to know that (Name)...", I don't have to read the rest of the message to know that someone passed away.
Friday, September 15, 2017

8:14 PM

Eighth glaze on portrait of Ong Keng Sen.
Friday, September 15, 2017

3:00 PM

Seventh glaze on portrait of Ong Keng Sen.
A broken clock does not stop time.
Heartfelt prayers for my Friend Honor Dimapilis, who passed away yesterday due to cardiac arrest.
Two boardwalk, strawberry ice cream cones at Toto's cafe. While Toto was conversing with a female friend at the entrance, the Sitio Caatacutan taong-grasa moved close to him to ask for the canned juice that he was sipping. Toto gave it to him. The taong-grasa sat by the road and consumed the drink. Long after the can was empty he still held on to it, as though it were a magic vessel that would give him more juice or as though it were a symbol of his security.
If you cannot afford to buy statuettes to use as wards, try origami figures. Paper folding is even as centering as pottery.
The Snakes 'n' Ladders board game has occult roots. Like rainmakers, it can be used to control the weather.
When people laugh at you it is usually to prevent you from laughing at them first.
Every activity has a mascot, if only you are able to identify it. It functions not only as a stimulus but also as an encouraging guide.
If animals could keep in touch with each other, most of them would escape from zoos, farms, circuses, and houses in order to be with their loved ones.

Good morning, Cubao! All roads lead to the sun, because it purifies.